An epiphany I had on Sara Bareilles' King of Anything

King of Anything by Sara Bareilles

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I'd say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You've got opinions, man
We're all entitled to 'em
But I never asked

So let me thank you for your time
And try not to waste any more of mine
Get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe
But I'm not drowning
There's no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree? You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So, you dare tell me who to be
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent
All full of good intent
Swear you know best

But you expect me to
Jump up onboard with you
Ride off into your delusional sunset

I'm not the one who's lost
With no direction, oh
But you'll never see

You're so busy making masks
With my name on it in all caps
You've got the talking down
Just not the listening

Who cares if you disagree? You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died and made you king of anything?

All my life I've tried
To make everybody happy while I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn
To decide

Who cares if you disagree? You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died and made you king of anything?

Who cares if you disagree? You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died and made you king of anything?

Let me hold your crown, babe

I like this song a lot but the more i sing, the more i find that something's wrong with the lyrics. And then one day, eureka! I found what's wrong with it. The whole song is about how she wants to tell off this person who constantly tells her what to do with her life. It says here in the lyrics she doesn't want this other persona's opinions and thoughts. She wishes that this other person could just keep his thoughts to himself. She wants to be free and not be told what to do. She is capable of living on her own, and she doesn't need to be rescued. BUT at the verse where i've underlined, it says, waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn to decide. WHAT??!! Throughout the whole song, she tells us how she feels about always being controlled by this other rather dominant character, and now she wants someone else to come along TO TELL HER that it's her turn to decide?! Woman, you are contradicting towards your own statement! If you know how it feels to always be told what to do, then woman, then why are you waiting for another person to tell you what should be done? You're back to square one where you're still controlled by someone! It ruins the whole purpose of this song! So dare you tell me who to be, yes, no one has the rights to tell you who to be, so please, don't wait for other people to tell you when to decide. You owe your life to no one to please but yourself. It's time you stop letting people tell you what to do, if you want to do something and it feels right to you, just do it. Go with your gut, or in the owl language, gizzard! ;)

Inez.

 

It got me thinking that i might be thinking too much.

I was hanging out with a bunch of friends this morning and Russell Peters came up. One of my friends started imitating him and told a gender joke Russell Peters made. It had something to do with how guys can just sit down for 15 minutes and not think about anything while girls can't. According to Russell Peters, us girls can never stop thinking, not even for 5 minutes, we can't! And it is very true. My mind is constantly filled with thoughts. Don't ask me what or why, i don't know. They're just there. Sometimes they even jump from one to another within seconds. And yes, some of the thoughts are incredibly random. I seriously don't know how the boys do it. Not think for 5 minutes is just mission impossible for me, but then again, when do boys ever think anyway. Am i right, girls? ;P

Inez.

The Comeback

2 months, i've been m.i.a for 2 months and what's better than to announce to the whole goddamn world, by world, i mean all you beautiful people who read my blog, that I passed my undang test! I was terrified that when i clicked the "tamat sesi" button, i closed my eyes with both of my hands. Good thing the room was empty when i saw my result cos i literally LOL-ed and then very out loud i said, damn bitch you're good! I walked out of the room, with pride i smiled while everyone else looked at me with their IDC faces. Ah, that's one of the best feelings you don't get to feel everyday. 

Inez.

There Are No Words

As scary as it is, writing my curriculum vitae a.k.a resume, I am grateful for having her as my mother. She's so amazing when it comes to these sorta stuff. I have a lovely pair of parents. One, who knows her way and is fearless in the corporate world, shows us the world as it is. The other, who sees the world in a whole new angle, teaches us many things that other children would only dream of. Thank you so much mommy and daddy. I love you :)

And It's A Whole New World

Day #1 of 2011
My family and I had to attend Chellah mama's funeral. We bid our goodbyes and came home.

Day #2 of 2011
Woke up feeling unwell. I spent the whole day lying down on my bed and staring into space while suffering through the pain.

Everything's gonna be just fine :)

Inez.

Howdy 2011 !

Happy New Year ! Great ahead of us everyone. Cheers and BLAST OFF! 

Inez. 

Stepping Into 2011

2011 was just 3 hours away when i got the news that one of my non blood-related grandaunt has passed on to the other side. She didn't make it to witness 2011 happen. She's now in a better place. A place with no pain, no sadness, no suffering, just pure happiness and peace. May she rest in peace. Happy new year Chellah mama.. Happy new year everyone :)

Inez.

No pressure.. Really ?

Boy : Marry me? 
Girl : Well, this is all so sudden, i need some time to think it over.
Boy : Hey, hey, don't worry. NO PRESSURE. I'LL WAIT FOR YOU AS LONG AS YOU WANT.

AS IF THERE WON'T BE ANY PRESSURE AFTER THE I'LL-WAIT-FOR YOU CRAP!
Yes, you say that there won't be any pressure but then knowing that you'll be waiting, IT GIVES A HELL LOT OF PRESSURE. Who would take their time, really take their time to think, consider all of the options and possibilities with peace of mind when they know that there is someone out there, waiting and hoping to be with you. No one could really do that unless you're a heartless evil jackass. So come on, if you don't wanna put pressure on that particular person, don't say that ! I know you people are eager but i haven't came up with something perfectly suitable to say in that sorta situation so before i do, you can try saying ~

1. Sure thing sweets. Take all the time you need.
2. Don't worry about it. What's important is you take your time.
3. Okay, i want you to relax and think about the future, YOUR future before you decide.

There ya go. You've got 3 options to twist and turn about. All better that the i'll-wait-for-you bugger.

Inez.

 

Cheers to all the seventeens out there!

The VIPs of my life.

Inez.

Tyler's Birthday at Monte's !

Phew ~ Finally a post with pictures ! We went to Monte's to celebrate Tyler's birthday :)

The food is darn good ! I strongly recommend Monte's ! ;)

 This is the cake KarYee *with Amanda's help* baked for Tyler. See the initial ;)

 Tyler giving a toast.

 Bottoms up !

 The boys flexing their biceps *rolls eyes

 This is what happens when you man up and down a mug full of beer with an empty stomach.

*Bored face

Inez.

The Power Of Words

When I was younger, I would always lose quarreling with my sister. She's the one with the good vocab and strong disputes. She's 2 years elder, what do you expect.. And when i get too angry and can't fight her points, i'd hit her. Of course, she'd report it to my mom and i'd get lectured, sometimes even punished. My parents have this rule, we can never hurt each other physically. What they didn't think of was, words that could hurt us mentally. They don't know the power of words. They don't know how deep a person can get hurt with words. The power of words are actually much stronger than physical contact. A person can get hurt by another person even if it means they're on different sides of the Earth. When you're physically hurt, you feel the pain on your skin, on your wounds, but the pain goes away as time passes by but when you're hurt by words, you feel pain everywhere, the kind of pain that you can't lick on it to make it feel better, the wound stays in a place so deep that you can't reach but it'll always hurt to remind you of its existance and the only solution to that is your mind. You are the only solution to make yourself feel better. But no matter how strong you are, it'll still be there. It's like an ugly scar which'll still hurt. Words have a greater power than all of us. Parents, educate your children and make sure they never abuse that.

Inez.

Birthday Surprise!

We were sitting at Mikko's living room, watching Finding Nemo. Mikko came up and told us to stand up. She said her maid wants to sweep the floor. "Where is she then?" was what running through my mind when everyone started clapping and singing to the birthday song. I clapped and sang along utterly unsure of what was going on. I tried asking whose birthday it was but all they did was ignore me. Then JinIng, JiaHui and LiWei came up with a candle lit chocolate cake in their hands. It was only when they were walking towards me that i realized the celebration was MY birthday. I believe my face was stunned. My reaction nerve wasn't working. Caught off guard, I wasn't sure of how to react so I just stood there with my goofy smile and surprised look. I definitely didn't see that coming. It was truly a surprise and i absolutely loved it! I had so much fun today and I have the girls to thank for. I love them to bits! :)


Birthday girl ;)

 

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone !

Howdy y'all ;) It's Thanksgiving ! I'm grateful for everything that i have and will have in the future.

Here's what i'm grateful for :
~ I'm finally sitting for SPM !
~ 3 subjects are done and over with.
~ My birthday's next Monday !
~ Tuition classes end next week !
~ Downloaded Easy A
~ Joined People's Choice and voted too ;)
~ SPM's gonna be over soon !!

Oh yeah, i'm grateful for the simple stuff. Life IS simple ;)
I stumbled upon Ian Somerhalder's foundation webpage. His birthday wish is for people to come together and raise funds to support projects concerning our Planet. For all of you out there who are capable of giving, go on ahead and check it out. It is Thanksgiving afterall ! Enjoy your stuffed turkey now :)

http://www.isfoundation.com/

Inez.

Let's Not Overthink It Shall We ?

Today, one of my classmates said something that bugged me -I'm sorry but i'm not a gentleman so don't expect me to help you. Well, not of that exact context but that's what he meant. Before this, he wrote on his status that he thinks the world's unfair. He wonders about the existenece of a gentlegirl instead of a gentleman. He thinks that it's unfair that boys are always the ones who tolerate and give in to girls. Well, i'm not gonna be the judge of this but if we were to lay every single unfairness between boys and girls, i think we're even. It's not easy being a boy, neither it is easy being a girl. Well it's not easy being anything !

My point is, why do we need to differentiate and label ourselves? Whether you are a gentleman or not, it's up to you to decide. What other people want to think is out of our control. Instead of complaining or trying to be the perfect gentleman, why can't we just let things be simple and help each other as friends? Why do we have to label ourselves in a way that'll make everything so complicated?

I guess that's jsut the norm of us human minds. We tend to overthink every single detail and confuse everyone including ourselves. We just can't be simple.

Inez.

Come and Go

It's the 3rd of November. I used to love this month. November was always fun. School ends in this month, my birthday is this month, etc .. I've always loved this month, just not this year's. It's SPM. I don't get to celebrate my birthday. I have a paper on my birthday and the whole week. So many reason i don't like this year's November.

Anyway, there's this song that i love. It's called Start All Over Again by Dana Glover and Dave Koz.

Hope everyone has a bloody awesome November ;)

Inez.

Human Nature

Hipocrites. We all are. One thing different is, we're separated by different levels. Congratulations, you just hit the highest level of hipocracy.

Inez.

When You Think It's Impossible

High School Graduation

I had a blast graduating yesterday. It was so much fun. The anticipation, the drama, the cameras flashing all over and everyone looked so pretty. I was nervous at first but when i was walking up the stage, i turned auto-pilot. I didn't feel anything. All i know is i was on auto-pilot. God knows how and why that happened.

I felt like i took tons of pictures. It was fun taking pictures and having my pictures taken. The food wasn't good though. After we had our meals, Vanesa snuck into my bus and we went back to school together. The teacher in charge didn't even take our attendance. The bus just left.

After we reached school, we took a few more pictures with someof our friends. Then we went over to Syaza's house. Vanesa went with Aiman on his bike, while Jaseem and I walked. The others took the car. It was nice, walking and talking with Jaseem. It's been some time since we've talked like this. Before this, we were all busy with the exams and stuff. We ordered pizzas cos we were still hungry. The food over at Putrajaya wasn't really good.

After i went home, as i was told, they did some loco stuff. Haha. I wouldn't say that i missed out a lot cos i was darn tired. Wouldn't have the energy to beat the craze anyway. However, i did take my time to take off my saree, remembering every single detail of the day before i hit the shower.

I felt a sudden rush of sadness. Graduation's over, which means only one thing, SPM. Can't wait for that to be over. After dinner, we watched One Tree Hill. Just like old times. (: It's always nice to end the long day watching my favourite series with my family.

Inez.

Cheers To The Past 5 Years

Tomorrow's graduation. I.AM.FREAKING.OUT. No one in my family seem to be excited but i'm bloody anxious! I'm worried about almost everything! My hair, my outfit, my make up, my shoes, if i'll look good. Gahh~ I have purple scrunchie curlers all over my head now. I'm not sure if it'll last for the day tomorrow but i'm willing to give it a shot. The biggest thing that i'm worried about is one of the you-know-who teachers would roll out some unwanted critics on me like some kind of fashion patrol officers. That would definitely ruin my day. I know that it isn't that of a big deal but still, after five years, ah, we deserve a day like this. Dressing up, going on stage, entertained by some performances, and food. I doubt that the food would be any good but that's not really the point is it. Anyhoo, let's hope that everything goes well and may all of us have a great day tomorrow ! :)

With love,
Inez.

Judgements

Everyone's so worked up about being judged lately. It's like a trend where people write on their profile about how much they love themselves and how other people shouldn't judge. Well, i think everyone's free to judge, it's just a matter of keeping quiet or the other way round. I mean, this life, it's all about judging, you can never run away from it, neither can you stop it. It's a natural thing, I don't think anyone can live without judging. Hell, people even judge my darling Jello. Yes, it's hard when people judge you but it's something we all have to live with. If you don't want other people to judge you, you start by not doing so, not to anyone or anything for that matter. Just know that when someone judges you, that person has hundreds of other people judging him. It's the norm of the society. We judge.

Inez.