Stepping Into 2011

2011 was just 3 hours away when i got the news that one of my non blood-related grandaunt has passed on to the other side. She didn't make it to witness 2011 happen. She's now in a better place. A place with no pain, no sadness, no suffering, just pure happiness and peace. May she rest in peace. Happy new year Chellah mama.. Happy new year everyone :)

Inez.

No pressure.. Really ?

Boy : Marry me? 
Girl : Well, this is all so sudden, i need some time to think it over.
Boy : Hey, hey, don't worry. NO PRESSURE. I'LL WAIT FOR YOU AS LONG AS YOU WANT.

AS IF THERE WON'T BE ANY PRESSURE AFTER THE I'LL-WAIT-FOR YOU CRAP!
Yes, you say that there won't be any pressure but then knowing that you'll be waiting, IT GIVES A HELL LOT OF PRESSURE. Who would take their time, really take their time to think, consider all of the options and possibilities with peace of mind when they know that there is someone out there, waiting and hoping to be with you. No one could really do that unless you're a heartless evil jackass. So come on, if you don't wanna put pressure on that particular person, don't say that ! I know you people are eager but i haven't came up with something perfectly suitable to say in that sorta situation so before i do, you can try saying ~

1. Sure thing sweets. Take all the time you need.
2. Don't worry about it. What's important is you take your time.
3. Okay, i want you to relax and think about the future, YOUR future before you decide.

There ya go. You've got 3 options to twist and turn about. All better that the i'll-wait-for-you bugger.

Inez.

 

Cheers to all the seventeens out there!

The VIPs of my life.

Inez.

Tyler's Birthday at Monte's !

Phew ~ Finally a post with pictures ! We went to Monte's to celebrate Tyler's birthday :)

The food is darn good ! I strongly recommend Monte's ! ;)

 This is the cake KarYee *with Amanda's help* baked for Tyler. See the initial ;)

 Tyler giving a toast.

 Bottoms up !

 The boys flexing their biceps *rolls eyes

 This is what happens when you man up and down a mug full of beer with an empty stomach.

*Bored face

Inez.

The Power Of Words

When I was younger, I would always lose quarreling with my sister. She's the one with the good vocab and strong disputes. She's 2 years elder, what do you expect.. And when i get too angry and can't fight her points, i'd hit her. Of course, she'd report it to my mom and i'd get lectured, sometimes even punished. My parents have this rule, we can never hurt each other physically. What they didn't think of was, words that could hurt us mentally. They don't know the power of words. They don't know how deep a person can get hurt with words. The power of words are actually much stronger than physical contact. A person can get hurt by another person even if it means they're on different sides of the Earth. When you're physically hurt, you feel the pain on your skin, on your wounds, but the pain goes away as time passes by but when you're hurt by words, you feel pain everywhere, the kind of pain that you can't lick on it to make it feel better, the wound stays in a place so deep that you can't reach but it'll always hurt to remind you of its existance and the only solution to that is your mind. You are the only solution to make yourself feel better. But no matter how strong you are, it'll still be there. It's like an ugly scar which'll still hurt. Words have a greater power than all of us. Parents, educate your children and make sure they never abuse that.

Inez.

Birthday Surprise!

We were sitting at Mikko's living room, watching Finding Nemo. Mikko came up and told us to stand up. She said her maid wants to sweep the floor. "Where is she then?" was what running through my mind when everyone started clapping and singing to the birthday song. I clapped and sang along utterly unsure of what was going on. I tried asking whose birthday it was but all they did was ignore me. Then JinIng, JiaHui and LiWei came up with a candle lit chocolate cake in their hands. It was only when they were walking towards me that i realized the celebration was MY birthday. I believe my face was stunned. My reaction nerve wasn't working. Caught off guard, I wasn't sure of how to react so I just stood there with my goofy smile and surprised look. I definitely didn't see that coming. It was truly a surprise and i absolutely loved it! I had so much fun today and I have the girls to thank for. I love them to bits! :)


Birthday girl ;)

 

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone !

Howdy y'all ;) It's Thanksgiving ! I'm grateful for everything that i have and will have in the future.

Here's what i'm grateful for :
~ I'm finally sitting for SPM !
~ 3 subjects are done and over with.
~ My birthday's next Monday !
~ Tuition classes end next week !
~ Downloaded Easy A
~ Joined People's Choice and voted too ;)
~ SPM's gonna be over soon !!

Oh yeah, i'm grateful for the simple stuff. Life IS simple ;)
I stumbled upon Ian Somerhalder's foundation webpage. His birthday wish is for people to come together and raise funds to support projects concerning our Planet. For all of you out there who are capable of giving, go on ahead and check it out. It is Thanksgiving afterall ! Enjoy your stuffed turkey now :)

http://www.isfoundation.com/

Inez.

Let's Not Overthink It Shall We ?

Today, one of my classmates said something that bugged me -I'm sorry but i'm not a gentleman so don't expect me to help you. Well, not of that exact context but that's what he meant. Before this, he wrote on his status that he thinks the world's unfair. He wonders about the existenece of a gentlegirl instead of a gentleman. He thinks that it's unfair that boys are always the ones who tolerate and give in to girls. Well, i'm not gonna be the judge of this but if we were to lay every single unfairness between boys and girls, i think we're even. It's not easy being a boy, neither it is easy being a girl. Well it's not easy being anything !

My point is, why do we need to differentiate and label ourselves? Whether you are a gentleman or not, it's up to you to decide. What other people want to think is out of our control. Instead of complaining or trying to be the perfect gentleman, why can't we just let things be simple and help each other as friends? Why do we have to label ourselves in a way that'll make everything so complicated?

I guess that's jsut the norm of us human minds. We tend to overthink every single detail and confuse everyone including ourselves. We just can't be simple.

Inez.

Come and Go

It's the 3rd of November. I used to love this month. November was always fun. School ends in this month, my birthday is this month, etc .. I've always loved this month, just not this year's. It's SPM. I don't get to celebrate my birthday. I have a paper on my birthday and the whole week. So many reason i don't like this year's November.

Anyway, there's this song that i love. It's called Start All Over Again by Dana Glover and Dave Koz.

Hope everyone has a bloody awesome November ;)

Inez.

Human Nature

Hipocrites. We all are. One thing different is, we're separated by different levels. Congratulations, you just hit the highest level of hipocracy.

Inez.

When You Think It's Impossible

High School Graduation

I had a blast graduating yesterday. It was so much fun. The anticipation, the drama, the cameras flashing all over and everyone looked so pretty. I was nervous at first but when i was walking up the stage, i turned auto-pilot. I didn't feel anything. All i know is i was on auto-pilot. God knows how and why that happened.

I felt like i took tons of pictures. It was fun taking pictures and having my pictures taken. The food wasn't good though. After we had our meals, Vanesa snuck into my bus and we went back to school together. The teacher in charge didn't even take our attendance. The bus just left.

After we reached school, we took a few more pictures with someof our friends. Then we went over to Syaza's house. Vanesa went with Aiman on his bike, while Jaseem and I walked. The others took the car. It was nice, walking and talking with Jaseem. It's been some time since we've talked like this. Before this, we were all busy with the exams and stuff. We ordered pizzas cos we were still hungry. The food over at Putrajaya wasn't really good.

After i went home, as i was told, they did some loco stuff. Haha. I wouldn't say that i missed out a lot cos i was darn tired. Wouldn't have the energy to beat the craze anyway. However, i did take my time to take off my saree, remembering every single detail of the day before i hit the shower.

I felt a sudden rush of sadness. Graduation's over, which means only one thing, SPM. Can't wait for that to be over. After dinner, we watched One Tree Hill. Just like old times. (: It's always nice to end the long day watching my favourite series with my family.

Inez.

Cheers To The Past 5 Years

Tomorrow's graduation. I.AM.FREAKING.OUT. No one in my family seem to be excited but i'm bloody anxious! I'm worried about almost everything! My hair, my outfit, my make up, my shoes, if i'll look good. Gahh~ I have purple scrunchie curlers all over my head now. I'm not sure if it'll last for the day tomorrow but i'm willing to give it a shot. The biggest thing that i'm worried about is one of the you-know-who teachers would roll out some unwanted critics on me like some kind of fashion patrol officers. That would definitely ruin my day. I know that it isn't that of a big deal but still, after five years, ah, we deserve a day like this. Dressing up, going on stage, entertained by some performances, and food. I doubt that the food would be any good but that's not really the point is it. Anyhoo, let's hope that everything goes well and may all of us have a great day tomorrow ! :)

With love,
Inez.

Judgements

Everyone's so worked up about being judged lately. It's like a trend where people write on their profile about how much they love themselves and how other people shouldn't judge. Well, i think everyone's free to judge, it's just a matter of keeping quiet or the other way round. I mean, this life, it's all about judging, you can never run away from it, neither can you stop it. It's a natural thing, I don't think anyone can live without judging. Hell, people even judge my darling Jello. Yes, it's hard when people judge you but it's something we all have to live with. If you don't want other people to judge you, you start by not doing so, not to anyone or anything for that matter. Just know that when someone judges you, that person has hundreds of other people judging him. It's the norm of the society. We judge.

Inez.

I Need My FairyGodmother.

I spent the day living in my own little world. I went to school as usual but somehow i manage to keep my mind to myself. I was occupied with my Sidney Sheldon. I was anticipated to get to the bottom of the mystery. Vanesa for one was pissed at me for partially ignoring her. I'm sorry but sometimes you just wanna shut the big world out for a while and enjoy some 'me' time.

I've been cracking my head lately trying to figure out the attire for my graduation. Yes. I.AM.GRADUATING.HIGH.SCHOOL. Upper secondary to be specific. The only problem is that i have no idea what to wear. I wish, someone could spare me some money to buy a dress, a pair of shoes, and a perfect hairdo. I want this to be perfect but i am lack of resources. Where is my fairy godmother when i need her ?

Inez.

Hello :)

WHOA ! It's been SO long since i've posted anything here. Haha. I miss you little bloggie. I've never understood how my friends could miss their blogs. It sounded ridiculous to me but now, i entirely understand it. In my case, i've been writing but most of them are in my draft box. This is what happens when you don't have a laptop of your own. I share with my mom, no, more like she lets me use it when she's not. Before i could finish my post she'd be standing beside me, waiting for me to give it up like a hawk.

I have so much to blog but ugh, so little time :( I have to go to school now. Hm. I'll have fun ! :)

Inez.

I Won't Let You Ruin My Day :)

I clicked no rsvp to the tongue in chic fashion bazaar yesterday. I have tuition classes so i don't get to go. For some reason, i got over it very quickly this time.

Around somewhere near to the end of my class, my phone kept ringing so i came down to pick it up. It was mom and after i put down the phone i checked my messages. There was one from Louise telling me to get ready. I wanted to jump on the spot but then my tutor was right behind me so i held everything back.

After tuition, i got ready and then off we went to the fashion bazaar ! I bought two rings and a pair of earrings. I wore a topshop crisp white button blouse and my MNG grey short jeans along with my grey studded flats. I had so much fun dressing up. I really enjoy dressing up and playing with fashion.

I must thank Louise for being such a sweetheart bringing me there. I'm sorry mamee for wearing you Topshop shirt before you did and without your permission. I will ask for your permission the next time. I just wish you could control your tone. It can be very rude sometimes. I know that i do that too but at least i have you to remind me. As for you, i would be more than happy to remind you that but no offence, you are too stubborn to listen. I must say, that i salute Louise. She tells you off, turn around and everything is okay again. I don't know how she does it. You're so difficult to handle but she does everything like she has a manual to it. I don't tell her all of these because i know she doesn't listen. Maybe she does but everytime i do, she makes me feel like she doesn't. It hurts every single time i try to express. I'll end up screwing myself for telling her. As much as i love you, mom, i'll keep this to myself. For now at least. And i hope to tell you one day.

Inez.

Stumbled Upon A Good Day

Hm, what day is today ? Oh yeah, its freaky flyday !!! Woot woot ! The day i've been waiting for is here ! Haha.

I planned to wake up late, eat, watch tv the whole day and enjoy doing everything i like. Oh you know how things never go as planned sometimes. I ended up waking up at 7, going to school, mind you not to study, haha, i went along with my mom to send Jason to school. After doing some grocery shopping over at the market, we went for breakfast. It's nice to feel the cool breeze during breakfast. I kinda enjoy having breakfast at 7.30 in the morning. The place is not as stuffy as it is at 10.

When we come home, my mom decided to clean the storeroom. YES, ABSOLUTELY PSYCHOTIC. I felt like my perfect day was gonna be ruined. She told me to move all of the old photo albums we had in this plastic bag into one of her spoiled luggage bag. Me, being the good girl *winkwink, did as i was told. As i moved the photo albums, i opened them to see. There were tons of photos. I browsing through the photos was like watching my dad grow up. From kiddies in the garden to primary school, to teens with the open-five-buttons-crisp-shirt plus flared end trousers and the long-flowy-blow-dry-hairdo fashion to bieng fat thin fat again, and then thin again, moustache, no moustache, well, technically, he's went from no-no fashion to oh-not-bad fashion. All credits to me momma that is. As for my mom, she went from schoolgirl pinafore uniform to spongy shoulder blazers, high waisted skirts, acid wash jeans, flats and then to a wedding gown. They looked so happy in their wedding pictures. Also, not to forget all of those pictures they took travelling around Europe. After all of those, came Louise, then me, and then Jason. (: It was flying down memory lane. Watching Louise went from girly girl to specs wearing shy shy girl and then the long hair feminine and pretty but sometimes jakun self now. Me, from bald baby to posy boycut-hairdo girl to specky to, i have no idea how to describe the present me.  Jason turned from being chubby cutesy baby boy to the tall skinny boy he is now. It felt like i flew down momery lane. Weddings, birthdays, new-born babies, fashion comebacks .. Fuhh ~ Quite a jorney i would say.

My day turned out to be better than what i have planned. All of the photos made me smile, all of the memories made me laugh. This has been one of the good days i stumbled upon. Come often now candies :)

Inez.

My Childhood Hero

This, lasses and lads, is my is childhood hero, Shivaji Rao Gaekwad a.k.a Rajinikanth. I used to watch all of his movies with my grandma. He was always jumping around, fighting and saving the world. I stumbled upon this picture of him, i don't know if it was edited or anything, but he looks really old here. With all his wrinkles and balding head. I feel down, looking at this picture. The thought of me growing up and him growing old. It makes me feel like my childhood is way behind me now. I miss watching his movies almost every weekend with grandma. Going to bed thinking about the way he would rescue me when i get into trouble and how awesome it would be. Funny how my childhood fantasy wasn't about being rescued by Superman or Spiderman, but it was being saved by Rajinikanth :) He is the roots to my passion. He made me feel like i can do anything and that everything's possible.

P.S. He and tata kinda look alike. Tsk tsk .. (:

Inez.

Are We There Yet ?

I don't know what have gotten into me but i get the feeling that today's the last day of my exam. Well it isn't. I have 2 more days to go. Bahhh ~ I know. I can't wait for Friday to come ! I'm gonna be at the peak of my mood. 2 more days .. 2 more days .. (:

Inez.

LOL !

This episode of One Tree Hill felt slow and sad. The ending was sorta like a happy/sad one. Nathan wanted to donate his kidney to Clay but he wasn't a match for Clay. In the end, Clay's ghostly friend passed away and donated his kidney to Clay, which kept Clay alive. I cried so much and i felt so down at the end of the episode but then Modern Family happened. It was hilarious! Probably the best episode of all times! I laughed so hard and it was so good, i watched the episode twice :P I have Modern Family to thank for not going to bed depressed and down. I swear laughing really is the best remedy to all sickness and disease. Happiness is what keeps the doctors away. Laugh away now people !

Inez. 

Live. Love. LetGo.

I am not one who likes changes. I adapt to them very quickly but I always seem to prefer the times before the changes were made. Before we moved to this house, we didn't have any laptops or computers. We only had a big fat 29-inch tv and some Dvds. I remember the days where Louise and I would watch our Dvds over and over again. Sometimes we would even watch cartoons with Jason. Once we buy new Dvds, we would watch it right away and then talk about it for days. We used to go to Ampang point on a weekly basis. It's either we'd visit the Popular or get Dvds. Eventhough we were young, we would always tolerate each other and everyone gets to buy their movies. We would always try to be fair to each other cos we knew that if we were to fight over Dvds, my parents would threaten to not buy any at all. Oh another funny incident is whenever Louise and I have money we would buy original Vcds and hide them in our bags. Sometimes when we don't have enough, we'd convince our daddy to help us out by paying say, half but he'd always end up paying for everything. Louise and I would always watch the movies we buy together. We would wait until the both of us are free and then we would watch them together. We would repeat the scenes we love and watch them over and over again, so many times we could remember the lines. Those days were fun, frustrating sometimes but it was still fun. It felt like a family thing, something other families wouldn't understand. Now, it's all about going 33md, facebook, twitter, and blogspots. We don't even buy dvds anymore. I guess we moved on from that family thing. I would kill to have those days back. It's not that i don't like the life i'm having now but it's just something about living it once more, to be able to feel again what i felt. 

Live. Love. LetGo. I guess i'm still working on LetGo. 

Inez. 

The Game

It's funny how trend and fashion setbacks from time to time. It's like a cycle which goes round and round. Before the technology was developed into such high-tech like today, lads wrote love letters with such lovely words, bought flowers and opened doors, all to flatter and woo the lasses. Then when technology advanced, all those efforts were considered cheesy and old-fashioned. Now, it's back again. Love letters, flowers, chocolates, homemade dinner, self-written poems, opening doors, etc, lasses are into those these days. The lasses prefer the lads to go back to the old fashioned way, when everything was much simpler. I wonder what's next ;)

Inez.

Thank You For Being There

I couldn't sleep last night. My mom was snoring and the dogs were making a lot of noises. I started playing with my mom's hand. I tried all the possible ways to hold someone's hand.It was funny how i had to adjust my body up down left and right so that our hands were both in a comfortable position. Then i wondered if love is the same, to love someone you have to adjust yourself in a way to be able to always give them the best. As i was thinking, i fell asleep. 


Then I fell into a really awful nightmare. I dreamt that Louise got into some trouble and my mom had to go into jail for her. My dad talked about spliting our property. I pleaded Jason to help me convince my dad that we'll behave and all but he just wouldn't take his eyes off the laptop screen. He kept telling me to give him a minute. Louise said she has no time cos she wants to go clubbing and then she throws the bomb on me that she's moving out. I begged the police officers lawyers and judges to help me but none of them listened. They turned their backs on me and occupied themselves with some other things. They sentenced my mom to 70 years of prison. I cried and pleaded, yelled and demanded but nothing seemed to work. I ended up holding everyone's legs and begged to stay, to help. I kept crying cos it felt like it was the end of the world. Then i heard my mom telling me that everything's okay and that it's all just a dream. She hugged me and said it's just a nightmare, and that everything's all right. I was so happy to hear her and feel her wrapping her arms around me. I felt like i was safe and nothing could hurt me at the time. I think the best thing a person can get is to have someone there to hold you and comfort you when you're jolted awake from a nightmare.


I woke up later in the morning and told my mom the whole story. Then we went for breakfast. In the car, we were talking about something about our neighbours and only i got to know that one of the elderly uncle passed away. I still remember how he mistaken me as a malay girl. I was walking home and when he saw me he asked where was i going and when i said home, he was surprised to hear cos he thought there wasn't any malay families in the neighbourhood. He kept speaking in his quite broken Malay even though i spoke Mandarin. No matter how hard i tell him i live here and that i'm not a Malay, he wouldn't listen. It was like he doesn't care for it. He takes his evening walks everyday at 6.30. We would always have the same conversation everytime. I'd ask him if he's had his dinner and he'd tell me that he has dinner at 6 and takes his walk at 6.30. Then he'll go on about his leg and how walking everyday helps. I used to see him all the time. It feels weird now that i don't get to see him anymore. May he rest in peace in a better place.


Inez.

Live. Love. LetGo.

I'm skipping tuition this week ! Of course i'm not gonna tell you which tuition silly :)

You know who was on my mind the whole day ? My darling sister Louise. I don't know why but i kept reminiscing about the days where we would always have lunch together at home after school. We would talk about all kinds of things. All the funny, weird and frustrating stuff that happened in school that day. And the times where we would talk non stop over dinner and mamee would get so annoyed when she failed to shut us up. We would tell her how important it is to talk like how we used to cos that's the only time where we really get to catch up with each other. Louise was right. Dinner chats are important. It made me feel, well, contented and happy. We don't have much of those anymore these days. You know what they say about growing up and growing apart. We spend less time with each other these days. I would always think that maybe after my exam i would have more time to hang out with her but then i remembered that she's leaving to the states soon. I guess this is my time to let the past remain as memories. Trying to get it back is, somehow disappointing cos it's a whole new world now and i can't change anything about it. What i can do though, is to look forward and create more memories i guess. Life goes on but that doesn't mean the memories and the past weren't real. They are real, very real i assure you, but for now, what's important is to appreciate and create more memories.



I went to have dinner with my neighbours last night. One of my neighbours, Summer, talked about how spoiled her daughter is by her husband. I instantly knew that she would be the ultimate brat in the future but what really made me smile was the fact that she'll also be her daddy's little princess. Daddy would always protect his little princess and gives her anything and everything she wants. I unconciously had this thought in my mind that i don't have to be a Hilton princess as long as i'm my daddy's princess. Then It caught me wondering, if i could still my daddy's princess when i'm all old and wrinkly. If i'm the girl he would give his life up just to see me smile. If i'm the girl he thinks about every night before he goes to bed. If he feels the sting at the back of his eyes when i tell him i love him. If he misses me so much that it aches. Cos that's how i feel about him. 

Maybe i am, i don't know and i will never know. What i do know is that i love him and he will always be the king of my heart.

All of this made me feel very grateful of the fact that i can still sleep in a same room with my mother and brother. Sleeping with my mother and brother is different that sleeping alone in my own room. Sleeping with them makes me feel warm and loved. I am very blessed to have that, to have all of them :)

Inez.

Dreaming

The History paper i sat today was okay. I am quite proud of myself actually :) With the help of some tips too of course.

I watched Just Wright. The story line was quite predictable but it's nice. It's just like all the other thousands and millions of chick flicks that prove men are idiots. It would've been better if the main actor get some acting skills. I thought his acting was stiff and awkward. The soundtracks on the other rocked ! My favourite has to be the starting track, Dreaming by Nikki and Rich.

Oh Glee's first episode of the season rocked ! Charice guest starred and i think she just might stick around for some time. Funny how Rachel Berry was threatened by her presence.

I'm having dinner with my neighbours tonight. Hopefully Moral paper tomorrow is easy :)

Inez.

Let's Hope I Have Better Luck Tomorrow.

I'm afraid i didn't do very well for English. I didn't have enough time for my essay. It's worth 50 marks. Let's hope everything'll be fine.

My new maid arrived last night. She can't read or write. It's gonna be hell for sometime but like i said, everything's gonna be okay. I just gotta be more patient. Right, gonna have add that new word to my dictionary.

I watched The Prestige. It was amazing. It was predicted that the name Christopher Nolan came up during the credits. I mean, i should have guessed it's him, cos it is just so bloody brilliant. Salute :)

Oh i can't wait for One Tree Hill, 90210, Glee, Modern Family and other movies ! I'm downloading and the speed of it is absolutely torturing.

My AddMaths class is postponed to later this evening. I actually woke up slightly early this morning to get prepared. -____-

I wanna eat Korean cuisine !!! :( 

Gonna sleep now. Chemistry class tomorrow. 3 bloody hours ! :'( 


What a depressing post this is. Night. 


Inez. 

The Hangover

The Hangover was mind-blasting ! It was bloody awesome ! Bradley Cooper, Ed Helms and Zach Galifianakis were amazing ! I absolutely love this movie, it is definitely a MUST WATCH ! I'm gonna watch it over and over again :) But for now, i need to go wash up and sleep cos it's already way past my bed time ;)

Inez.

Adrenaline Keeps the Doctor Away

My eyelids were heavy. My hands were weak. My breathing slows down. I was falling asleep and it was only the second period. When my BM teacher left the classroom, i planned to lay my heavy head down for a while to take a nap. As usual, my Maths teacher came in right after my BM teacher left. I had to wake up to do Maths. I was dreaded by the thought of it. To make things worse, after Maths, is Add Maths.



I was so sleeping that i even closed my eyes when i was stapling the Maths revision papers. I took the butter cake i brought to school out and offered Vanesa and Tina one piece each. While we were eating, my Maths teacher walked over to out table, Vanesa panicked and stuffed the remaining cake that was in her hands right into her mouth. It was just hilarious! We've eaten so many times in class but this time it's funny how she freaked out and reacted. We laughed and laughed so hard that the sleepiness was gone. It's funny how adrenaline keeps me fresh and healthy. So smile and laugh more peeps, you'll see what it does to you :)



Inez.

Moving Forward, Making Progress

It felt so weird having to wake up at 6 and put on my school uniform. I came down and had 2 chocolate muffins for breakfast all by myself. Jason decided to skip school so this morning i was on my own. I looked into the long big mirror i have in my living room and felt extremely weird, like the one in the mirror wasn't me. 

I went to school and the first person i saw was Tina :) Then it was Syaza. I didn't see the others and i thought Vanesa was gonna be absent. ): Yes, i like it better when she comes to school. Then after our assembly, i saw her walking to the back with Tina, *sigh of relief. Haha. I hugged all of my close friends happy to see them looking weird too wearing uniforms. 

Vanesa, Tina and I were so excited about drinking water and having recess together. It's been a month since we've eaten together in the school canteen. Well, as usual, canteen comes only after what feels like a millenium, by the time it was recess we were too hungry to even squel. While we were eating, the four girls who were sitting across of me, yelled and the four of them momentumly at the same time * oh what am i talking about, they broke the bench that's it. They were sitting and then all of a sudden the bench broke INTO HALF JUST LIKE THAT. :D What a nice experience. Tsk tsk .. It's either they're too heavy or the bench is just useless. I'd like to think that it's the first one but everyone knows it's the second.

Oh i need to get going now, shower and all. I came back so tired i fell asleep after having my lunch. So tired i couldn't even walk without looking like some jelly. I hope tomorrow could be as good as today :)

Inez.

Can I Have That Too ?

I have no class tomorrow. My tutor isn't feeling very well so wee ~ Not wee cos she isn't feeling well but wee cos i get to put on some make up and pretty clothes and go out to meet some people other than my family :) Mr William is right. My sentence are always too long. 

I'm now chatting with Hui Sin and Syafizan. It's nice to catch up with Hui Sin. I remember how close we used to be. We were so close that sometimes we would have some arguments. I remember how i used to take her for granted. We were THAT close. God i miss her so much. This is probably my punishment now for not treating her much better. God I miss her like crazy ! 


It's 1. Ugh, the speed of time is equivalent to the speed of light. I must go to bed NOW and leave the lovely birds alone. They're having so much fun i'm starting to get jealous. I'm happy for them but the more i see them, the more i'll think "when's my turn?". It's annoying. No, not them, me. Pfft. Okay, let's hope i sleep well tonight. Go away nightmares. 


Inez. 

I'm not a 5 year old.

It's 10am and I have tuition in a bit. I specifically told my tutor that 10 is too early for me. I prefer the old time which is at 1. He said the old time is 10, it always has been 10.
 -____- He lied to my face like i'm a 5 year old. Well, guess what, i won't let him bully me anymore. My next class would be at 1p.m. and if there should be any changes, i'll be the one making them, not him. I'm gonna stand up for myself. Besides, it's only a few more months to go. If he doesn't like me, we won't see each other anymore anyway after these few months. 3 months, tops. (: So NO, no more bullying Inez.

Inez.

TGIF

I kept posting and posting i forgot to check my Cbox. 3 person commented and i forgot to reply. Pfft. Something's wrong with my big ass brain. I've been forgetting a lot of things lately. It's so annoying. 

Last night was fun. We went over to Manda's house to give her a surprise. The plan was for Alex to go into the house first while we hide outside til Ky comes. We hid at possibly the worst spot, which is at the side of the car, on the grass. The grass was all long and sharp. Then when we got the cue, we lighted the cake and went into her house singing the Happy Birthday song. She was all dressed up pretty :) We took turns to hug her and dug into the cake. We took some pictures and headed out to Sid's Pub. Manda and Alex were in one car and the others squeezed into Louise's Wira. I sat in front *tsk tsk and Louise KarYee Ky and Anthony sat at the back. It's so fun how they were all literally squashing each other. Oh, Tyler was the one driving. When we reached Sid's Pub, Joseph was already there. We sat down and ordered some food and beer. The waiter was cute! *wink wink. I liked the Heineken, Snake Bite and fries were yummy. Then i got tipsy and told the waiter he's cute. I've got balls when i'm tipsy. Haha.

We left the pub around 12 and came back to my house. Tyler tried to train Jello but knowing Jello being Jello, Tyler kinda failed. I was hoping that he could train her to do some tricks or even just to listen to some simple instructions. My dog is just too hyper a.k.a hopeless. Then we played Truth or Dare. My favourite dare was definitely the boxers guess. All the boys had to take their boxers off and lay it all on the floor. I had to guess which boxers belongs to who. Bull's eye. I guessed everyone's correctly. C:

Last night was really fun. No vomiting no crying no drama. Haha. 

Inez.

Rue, Atone, Propel and Never Look Back

The HK series that i've been chasing has come to an end. It's a happy ending. Durh ~ It's so happy but at the same time, sad too. It's like something that was a part of me has come to an end. This is the thing about happy endings. It makes you happy, but at the same time it also tells you goodbye. I never liked saying goodbyes, i didn't know that watching endings are also a type of goodbye. I just realized a few moments ago when i clicked on the "X" on the window screen of the Qvod player i used to watch my HK series. This reminds me to some lines from The Imaginarium of Dr Parnassus and One Tree Hill.

Nothing is permanent, not even death.

Change is the only constant in life.

There is an end to every song but that doesn't mean we shouldn't enjoy it, in fact, we should enjoy while it's still playing.

It's not easy, quite impossible actually to be able to live up to these adages. Yes, we would always be sad or disappointed about something we did or happened but there is no reason to linger and feel sorry. We must rue, atone, propel and never look back. I will rue, atone, propel and never look back.

Rue:
I'm sorry Louise. I thought no one reads my blog and i had no one else to talk to at that time so my blog seemed like the best solution. I was immature and confused. I wasn't thinking. It's your life, your call. I had no rights to judge you.

As for the atone, propel and never look back. I'll make sure i attend to them but as of right now, my eyelids are halfway closed. Goodnight.

Inez.

The Day Has Come

I've been waiting this day to come! I fell asleep at 8.30p.m. last night and i woke up at 10 this morning! There were nightmares here and there, bits and pieces but overall, i'm still glad that i slept early last night.

I was watching some of KevJumba's videos and i liked how he included his dad in it. They're so funny together. I suppose that's where he got his sense of humour :) I like it, you know, a family being so happy, working together on something. Like Janice and Sonia, they sing together. I've always wanted a twin who could do things like that with me. I know what you're thinking, yes, there would be competition and people comparing the sisters or twins, but those things happen to everyone, even when you're an only child, you'll get compared and judged too. So is it not better to appreciate what you have instead of worrying about the unnecessary. Well, everything is easier said than done.

Watching the "I Love My Dad" and "What We Hate About Each Other" videos made me think of my dad. I miss him so much. I'm not miserable without him here, okay, yes, maybe a little miserable cos my mom gets all protective unreasonable and cranky but i miss not having to do every single thing around here. I miss being a girl and has a daddy to protect her. Knowing the fact i never would have it hurts. Even if he comes back, i don't think i'll have that anymore. I'm sure he thinks that i'm too old to be spoilt. Tough love, just like my mom. He wants me to grow up and be mature. What he doesn't know is that i am all of that, i just act like i'm not when i'm with him. I wanna be treated and spoilt like a little girl. I mean, if he doesn't treat me like a princess, who would ? He wants me to toughen up and all, well, i am tough, but being tough is tiring, and i just wished that i wouldn't have to be tough when i'm with you. I wanna come home and be your little girl. Guess what, that is what's gonna make me stronger. Tough love is just gonna push me to some other people's arms. Same goes to my mom. Oh how i wish they'd understand that tough love never works. But then again, they're typical asians. You know how they are ;)

I'm gonna go cook my brunch now :) Later !

Inez.

Look At Me, Can't You Tell ?

So i over-reacted, I'm aiming to be an artist, what do you expect ? Although what i said was true, she is still very important to me. I will decide what my feelings when she explains later. I won't ask, i'll wait for her to tell me. Let's hope she tells me cos i don't wanna get hurt and i love her too much to resent her. Okay, so that too was dramatic and i could never resent her but what can i say, it's Inez's blog you're reading, can't you tell :)

Oh my darling Jello is barking, probably communicating with the other dogs. I can actually recognize his voice :) Sorry, random :P

See, i forgot what i wanted to say again. It's been happening for some time. I forget easily what i wanna say and do. It's so frustrating. 

Oh, yes yes, now i remember, gosh i really am old. I wanted to thank Mida and Tyler for chatting with me. You two made my day better :) 

 I checked Julian's blog out, it was epic. The pictures are awesome, especially the HDR one, amazing. Then i saw this guy, tried to search him on Facebook but i couldn't find him. Yes, i'm lifeless that way. 


My dinner was awesome. Simple and yummy. Ooh, that rhymes doesn't it. Tsk tsk ..

We'll see ...


Inez.
 

I'm Falling but I Shall Catch Myself

I don't wanna end up in that black hole again. I'm gonna grow metal wings if that's what it takes to stay away from the black hole. I'm gonna turn a deaf ear on the devils who are tempting me because i know better than to believe them, i know better to not go back, to not fall into the where i've tried so hard to climb up from. I am strong and I will stand still at the peak. 

Inez.

He Made the Song Awesome

Wee ! I just came back from Jason's dance exam at Dance V Me Academy. He truly is my brother, hot and awesome ! :P My hands were trembling, i was so nervous for him ! His face was drained when the last Latin dance. It meant that he was up. He was so nervous, which made me even more nervous than i already was :O He went up to the examiner, greeted him and took his position. 

*Watch the video to see what happened ...

I know righttt ... C: I am so bloody proud of him! He got me speechless :) <3

Inez. 

Don't be Afraid of the Rubber Snakes

I just came back from dinnner with my grandpa and family :) My youngest cousin, Hewitt, said my sister, Louise looks pretty and he is 2 !! I mean how flattering is that ?! He kept looking at her throughout the dinner. He is so handsome. Awww ...

I slept at 6-ish a.m. last night. I was supposed to sleep at 4 but i ended up studying Chemistry. Oh i'm so proud of myself ! Haha. I woke up to my mom knocking on the door at 10.30a.m. she came onto my bed and starting hugging me. We rolled on the bed for a while and then got ready for the day. That's the perfect way to start a day :)

Jason is having his dance exam tomorrow. He looks different when he dances. Not the irresponsible 10 year old boy but the good looking boy who can dance ! I hope things would smooth sail tomorrow :)

I wore my brand new jeans shorts today ! Love it ! It is just comfy :) Oh, i forgot to mention last night that i met MeiTeng at Diva. She was working there but i didn't get to buy anything from there though. Haha. Louise on the other hand bought a snake ring that freaks my mom out. Yes, still does. tsk tsk .. It's so weird that she's afraid of snakes cos Jason loves snakes. He used to bring his toy rubber snake to bed with him. I mean, after so many years of sleeping with rubber snakes, how can she still be so afraid of them. She thinks that it is RIDIIIICULOUS to spend RM33 on a stupid snake ring. Louise was lectured throughout dinner. Literally. I've always believed that the more afraid you are of something, the more  you'll attract it.

I had so many things in my head that i wanted to blog about earlier today but right now, i am entirely blank :O I shall write it down next time.

Inez.

The Perfect Score

I just googled Harry Shum Jr and he is bloody hot! His mother tongue is Spanish, holy mother of speeches, ugh, i wanna hear him speak Spanish, can't imagine how hot it'd be ! I think i'd faint. LITERALLY. 


He's one of the good looking Chinese boys, he speaks Spanish *oh such a turn on, English and Chinese :O he can dance *shit! what !, he can sing too *faints .. , and he choreographs, SCORE !! ;3


I'm gonna dream about him tonight.


Inez.



 

No Peeking

I am in a situation where the things that i say are restricted. I can't just go on and say whatever i wanna say, whatever that pops into my mind. I don't think it'll last very long though :) Well i hope not at least. Even though i'm somehow restricted, i find myself talking a lot. LIKE A LOT. I hope i didn't annoy the people involved. :O I have this urge to just go out right now so that i won't feel left out, but i think i've been involved more than enough. If i were to go out right now, i'd be a bitch. So i peeked, that doesn't make me a bitch right. Oh how badly i wanna open the door to see what's going on outside. Yes, i'm the type who loves secrets :) 

I went shopping today, like FINALLY !! tsk tsk .. I bought a grey jeans shorts, liquid eyeliner, Stage lipstick and other necessities. I ate Delicious for dinner. Oh how i missed the smoked salmon angel's hair ! It's just so good ! Yumm ~ 

I had some drama with my mom at the mall but i think i'll leave that out for now. And the HK series too cos i'm just too darn happy to even mention about it! 

They're still out there. I'm so scared i'll lose it and just open the door and see what's going on. God help me ! 

Inez. 

My Mom is Staring at Me.

The only thing i had all day was half a cup of milo. After that half cup of milo i had 2 hours of Additional Mathematics. It was both mentally and physically tiring. Physically tiring cos i didn't take in proper breakfast or food for that matter. Mentally exhausting, well, who doesn't get mentally exhausted after two hours non-stop of additional mathematics. Well, later tonight or probably tomorrow i'll post something on the HK series i've been chasing. As for now, i'm out to get some food :) Toodles ! 

Inez.

A Good Kickstart of the Day

I clicked on something again but this time i was unable to undo to get my previous unsaved post back. =.=

I'll update later then since i have a class in like 30 minutes. I haven't done my homework !

I'll be back ! :) In the meantime, y'all get some food first aye. tsk tsk ..

Inez.

Make Me Happy :)

Here i am again, updating. I don't know why but blogging seem to keep me happy. Not for very long but i must get ahold of every single opportunity to be happy, everyone should :)

I hate the fact that my tears come so easily. It's like my tears have a brain of their own. They come and go whenever they feel like it. It sucks that i'm not able to control it. Everyone has weak spots and I, happen to have many of them.

I held back and tried stopping myself from asking Louise that question. I know that i'd cry if we were to talk about it. But me being myself, i asked. Everything happens for a reason but after so many years of trying to understand why this happens, i still haven't found my answer. I'm the type who loves attention and i'm not afraid to admit it but when people give me attention, it's always times where i'm unhappy. Even when i'm just fooling around pretending to be unhappy, they assume that i'm being my difficult self or just plainly a grudge.

Mr William was right, the word ASSUME should never be used. When you assume something, you make an ass out of you and me. ASS-U-ME. I hope those people who ASS-U-ME i'm difficult, anti-social, mean, stupid, imperfect, negative and not a fun person to be around, you're wrong. I'm not so don't even make assumptions like that. If i give you the feeling that i'm like that, you're making an ass out of you and me and you're the problem to why i'm behaving like this.

OMG. I just highlighted everything and clicked one of the alphabets. Everything went missing :O Luckily my blogging system is an advanced one so i just had to click undo to get my previous post back. Thank God for that ! :) I love me bloggie. tsk tsk ..

Another thing that makes me happy is watching dance clips. Zumba, popping, Jabbawockeez, and streetdance. My current favourite dance crew is Flawless, the one from Britain's Got Talent. They're so bloody awesome! Their choreography is sick! I love it ;) I can't wait to watch Step Up 3, i'm sure that too would be a blast.

I don't wanna say it out loud but i think my body shape is coming out. I have some slight curves on my waist. :) I think Zumba really helps though. Zumba's really amazing. It's so much fun, especially the latin music i use !

My mom watched the last episode of the HK series we were chasing. I hope i don't accidently overhear the ending. God, please make sure she shuts up and keeps the ending to herself :) My 12 year old cousin brother is staring while i compose this post. I guess he's waiting for his turn to use the computer. I'll update you in a bit, probably a little later.

Inez.

Addiction and Thoughts

Good morning peeps ! Shit, i really am addicted to blogging. Tsk tsk. Plus, i updated my blogging system. It's so bloody awesome. It's just so new and freakaay babeh. I'm not really liking the font though. I prefer the old trebuchet ;)

Looks better. 

I just woke up a few moments ago and Louise broke me the news that we aren't going to Bangsar for dinner. =.= I wanna go out, i wanna dress up and meet people. I wanna look pretty and feel confident. That bitch knows that but didn't even thought of telling me. I had to ask her like some kind of idiot always behind the agendas. I hate it, i mean if you're bringing me and then decides not to, have the decency to tell me. I am a living person going too, planning too, how do you think it makes me feel ?? Yes Louise I just called you a bitch. Tada ~ I'm embracing my flaws ;P

This is the advantage to me now cos i know no one really reads my blog. This would be like my secret land. It's exposed but fuck it, imma rock and roll babeh ! 

I've always kept my blog sane and happy cos somehow i hope it reflects my life that way. I want my life to be like happy-go-lucky and cheerful all the way. I wanna be able to read back to my old posts and feel like a lucky little girl living a happy-no-evil life. I realize now that that's impossible. I don't tell people my feelings. It seems to everyone that i'm the kind who shows it all but the truth is deep down, i'm the one who keeps things to myself. I tell people the obvious ones to make sure that they don't question about my feelings. So i figured if i can't tell people, i can't tell my family, i'd tell you.

As far as secrets are concerned, no one reads this blog :) That's the pretty part of this blog. Trust me, i can curse one of my friends over here, and they probably wouldn't know. Haha. Okay, not gonna go overboard, just  in case someone does read this.

I might just update again a little bit later. I'm gonna go shower and have my lunch. Selamat Hari Raya ! 

Inez. 

Flawless: Dance Group - Britain's Got Talent 2009 - The Final

Give Me A Rose and I'll Make Up My Mind

Wow, my 3rd post in a day ! I'm sure as hell bored and still hungry. After my last post, i ate twiggies and had a cup of milk tea. Now, i plan to fry some rice. I'm just afraid i might fail again this time, which means more work for me to do. I just wished i had a car and that i can drive out to the nearest mamak and fill my stomach with all the unhealthy food but who cares, as long as my stomach is actually filled with something other than just water. Oh fuck it, i'm gonna go cook now.

Inez.

Hunger Makes Me Crazy

On top of the morning sheriff ! It's 10.44a.m. and Louise just left to Times Square while I am here waiting for breakfast to be heated up. I'm so lazy to cook and yet so darn sick of bread spread with butter and chocolate. I'm not exactly lazy to cook, i'm just lazy to do the washing. Especially with my newly quite disastrous painted nails, I don't wanna ruin them now do I. I'm hungry .. Oh so hungry, I know that people hear me say it all the time but this time, i really am bloody hungry. *faints .. Shit ! I totally forgot about my rice ! I bloody burned the wok. Now i really am hungry and angry.

Inez.

You Go First

I just came back from Fireball. Played foosball and pool :) I'm pretty good at foosball *wink and have improved at pool. Tsk tsk .. Though, i gotta really work on my social skills. I'm shit sucky at socializing, literally. It's like i sit down with someone and i don't have the slightest idea what to say. They always end up walking away and sitting elsewhere. So sad kan .. Aih .. I guess i just need the kickstart. Like i need the other person to start the topic. Haha. But who would have the patience to do that anyway. I think i give out this vibe, this bad energy .. I have no idea what i'm crapping. Haha. Better go to bed before i lose it.

And One Thing Led to Another

I miss Ravi so much. I was straining all my muscles to get my nails painted and even after all the effort, i didn't get anything accomplished. I remember how good she was at nail painting. I'd always just sit and after a while my nails are all perfectly painted :) Now, its just a bloody tiring process which i always seem to fail, at all times ! Also, she's always there when no one notices me. She was the reason depression stayed away from me. She makes me smile, even just by brushing my hair. Now that she's gone, everything around here seems like a big pile of mess. I'm a big pile of mess. I know i said i could be strong without her but now the way things are, i'm losing confident. She was the rock i leaned on when i was tired. I hope i find myself another rock soon, soon before i collapse.

Inez.

Post 101

Post 101.
I've been blogging a lot lately. Have i mentioned that in my last post ? I'm so bored. It's amazing how i'm always bored but i don't seem to put any effort into making my life more interesting. The radio behind my house is making lotsa noises. I try my best to ignore it but i feel like it's getting louder, probably to catch my attention. Hm. I'm going out to catch a movie tomorrow. Gonna watch Vampires Suck ! Haha, no offence you Twilight people out there cos i'm only watching it for Matt Lanter, the Edward Sullen a.k.a Edward Cullen of Twilight ;) Tsk Tsk .. Y'all have a great Tuesday now.

Inez.

Hello Old Times ;)

I just came back from lepak-ing with the bunch. Vanesa, Syafiqah, Amalina, Jaseem, Aiman, Syaza and Jasper. We met up at McD and then walked over to Syaza's house. We took pictures and all, so much fun :) Just like the old times. Louise just left with Anthony and Alex to Jalil. I didn't go, i hope i don't regret. Before i regret, i better go to bed ! :) Tsk tsk. Nights you party people !

Inez.

Hope

I just finished watching the last episode i have of my current episode, Pretty Little Liars. Episode 11 is only due January 2011. 2011 !! I'm gonna have to wait for another 4 months before i can get my hands or shall i say eyes on Pretty Little Liars again ! Urgh ! But, there's gonna be whole lot of other series which are coming back so i guess i'll be fine. I miss watching Ugly Betty, i miss the times where all of us would sit down together and watch. Those are some good family time :) I miss that, a lot. I hope this time, One Tree Hill could bring us back to those times again. I have two weeks of school-free but definitely not study-free. Trial's coming, i'm freaking out but at the same time i'm putting no effort. It's like i'm wasting all of my time being sad, worried, paranoid, depressed, pathetic, in other words, i'm being negative. Name one negative quality, it's me, no doubt. I feel like i need to start over, with something, somewhere, but i just have the WHs. I don't like this side of me. I'm even blogging negatively. I once said that i would keep my blog cheerful and happy with all the rainbow memories but this time, i just can't seem to find any happy stuff to blog about. I've also been letting my feelings out a lot. I guess i just can't contain it in me anymore. I'm going back to my own room tonight. I hope i get a good sleep, along with some sweet dreams too if i may add. I haven't been able to sleep well lately. Everytime i sleep, i'd have nightmares, without fail. I hope going back to my own room would get rid of all these, and that everything would be okay, better :) Good night.

Inez.

Taken by the wind

Khai Sze's leaving tonight. Everyone's going to the airport to say goodbye. I don't get to go cos i'm needed at home. She's a real darling. I love the way she talks. Her gestures and all, she's just so adorable ! :) She's going back to Moscow, Russia. Oh, why are goodbyes always so heartbreaking.. I think i'd cry if i were to go and say goodbye. No, judging by how loose the gate to my tears are, i definitely would cry. My goodbye would've been flooded with tears. Haha, i can imagine it. Oh, i miss her already.. But it's okay, she'll be home in no time. December, probably after my SPM. So that's just a couple of months from now :) Wee ~ Can't wait for the time to come. It'll be so much fun ! :D Have fun now Khai Sze ! Rock and Roll :)

Inez.

Starting of a new month :)

Its the first day of September. After this week, i'll have two weeks off. Hari Raya :) Happy September everyone.

Rock and Roll.

Merdeka

Its MERDEKA ! :) No, not SPM MERDEKA, more like Malaysia's Merdeka. Haha. The SPM Merdeka is gonna be somewhere around December. Can't wait ! :) Its a Tuesday, i'm bored, hungry, and stinky. All alone at home, waiting for my fishballs eyes to go away, and someone to call me out.. Whoo ~ Gonna need some tough luck. I hope things'll get better :)

-Inez

Inez's Day

Yesterday.
I had so much fun with Tarkessh. We went to Times Square to catch the Grown Ups but the movie was not out yet so we watched Repo Men. Tarkessh called the others out but they were all too lazy to come. So it was just Tarkessh, Tharma, his girlfriend and I. I thought the movie was, sad. After the movie, we went over to Low Yat to fix my RMVB player. Then, we hung out at one of the empty spaces in Times Square. After Tarkessh dropped me off at home, i went out with Louise and Rachel. We went over to Rachel's house to pick Kristy up and i got to meet Milo, Rachel and Kristy's new puppy ! It's a Jack Russell Shih-Tzu mixed. Its SO adorable ! He reminds me so much of Kisses :( When we reached Amanda's house, her mom was at the kitchen, giving out the you-better-behave-or-i'll-punish-you vibe. Khai Sze was already there when we reached. Huba, Alex and Anthony arrived a little later. The boys brought booze, and we started playing some games, which by the way, tak jadi pown. I am such a loser when it comes to drinking alcohol. I suck, like so bad .. I don't know what i said but i was talking non stop and everyone just kept laughing. Can't remember what i said though. Later that night, i had somewhat a breakdown. I KNOW .. SO EMBARASSING ! :( It feels like forever for the time to come for us to go get breakfast. I was down right hungry. :/ I couldn't really eat though, which sucks, cos i was feeling hungry and sick at the same time. But, overall, I had a blast ! :) Need to do this more often ! :P Though, i promise, no more breakdowns, oh and alcohol too, NO MORE.

Inez.