A Historical Day

I tried to study History last night and i failed entirely again. After 50 minutes of furious reading, i fell asleep. Then i woke up at 5.30a.m. swearing to myself for falling asleep. I took a quick shower and started reading again. The first paper was okay. The second paper was not as bad as i expected it to be. My class started half and hour late. The teachers said that our papers were missing and she went like 'how is this even possible ?! And it just has to be this class, MY CLASS ! You people are just too special.' Yes, she ended with sarcasm. The boys were extremely excited at their dumb luck, thinking they were able to escape this test. How naive. It wasn't at all possible. They'd either quarantine us or get us to do some other paper. You still gotta do it ! I was the last one to hand in the paper. Hated it when everyone else started leaving the room saying their cute little goodbyes. It was annoying ! Not the goodbyes, its the fact that i can't leave with them :( On the other hand, my time was better spent than sitting on the bench wondering when is my driver coming :) *phew what a day ...

XO,
Inez.

Simply Because I Love You

I don't blame you when you say you love me more when deep down you love him more.

I don't blame you when you say you put me first but deep down they come before me.

I don't blame you when you deny the world as i accuse you of being insensitive.

I don't blame you when you pretend you're listening to me talk but really you only hear.

I don't blame you when you leave without saying goodbye or giving me a peck on my cheek.

I don't blame you when you react the way you do when i throw tantrums.

I don't blame you when you say things that could cut right through my heart.

I don't blame you when you don't see all of these that you have done.

I don't blame you. The blame was never on you.

Simply because I LOVE YOU.

Fill Me Up

I've been feeling so empty lately. Before this, i was always down for some reason but after sometime i just don't feel anything anymore. I know i have this rule where i always keep my blog happy-go-lucky but this time i just really feel like writing this. I'm just blank. My friends were complaining that i'm not my crazy self anymore and that i was always frowning, like i had something bothering me. But the good thing is that i ACTUALLY know that i'm feeling empty. Which means i'm not all blank. At one point I felt so empty that i kept stuffing food into my mouth just so i would feel, well, full. I eat even when i'm not hungry. This is bad and i really need to get rid of this. So i thought of exercising to get rid of this but it has gotten worse. When i jog, my mind roam wild and free into wonderland then it stops and my concentration goes to the moving ground where my feet dances on. Few rounds later, dizziness took place. So that plan's out from my list. Then i tried watching my favourite romanctic comedies. That didn't work as well, the more i watched the more i felt empty. Back to phase one, i started putting food into my mouth again, to fill in the emptiness i had in me.

Inez.