Hope

I just finished watching the last episode i have of my current episode, Pretty Little Liars. Episode 11 is only due January 2011. 2011 !! I'm gonna have to wait for another 4 months before i can get my hands or shall i say eyes on Pretty Little Liars again ! Urgh ! But, there's gonna be whole lot of other series which are coming back so i guess i'll be fine. I miss watching Ugly Betty, i miss the times where all of us would sit down together and watch. Those are some good family time :) I miss that, a lot. I hope this time, One Tree Hill could bring us back to those times again. I have two weeks of school-free but definitely not study-free. Trial's coming, i'm freaking out but at the same time i'm putting no effort. It's like i'm wasting all of my time being sad, worried, paranoid, depressed, pathetic, in other words, i'm being negative. Name one negative quality, it's me, no doubt. I feel like i need to start over, with something, somewhere, but i just have the WHs. I don't like this side of me. I'm even blogging negatively. I once said that i would keep my blog cheerful and happy with all the rainbow memories but this time, i just can't seem to find any happy stuff to blog about. I've also been letting my feelings out a lot. I guess i just can't contain it in me anymore. I'm going back to my own room tonight. I hope i get a good sleep, along with some sweet dreams too if i may add. I haven't been able to sleep well lately. Everytime i sleep, i'd have nightmares, without fail. I hope going back to my own room would get rid of all these, and that everything would be okay, better :) Good night.

Inez.

Fill Me Up

I've been feeling so empty lately. Before this, i was always down for some reason but after sometime i just don't feel anything anymore. I know i have this rule where i always keep my blog happy-go-lucky but this time i just really feel like writing this. I'm just blank. My friends were complaining that i'm not my crazy self anymore and that i was always frowning, like i had something bothering me. But the good thing is that i ACTUALLY know that i'm feeling empty. Which means i'm not all blank. At one point I felt so empty that i kept stuffing food into my mouth just so i would feel, well, full. I eat even when i'm not hungry. This is bad and i really need to get rid of this. So i thought of exercising to get rid of this but it has gotten worse. When i jog, my mind roam wild and free into wonderland then it stops and my concentration goes to the moving ground where my feet dances on. Few rounds later, dizziness took place. So that plan's out from my list. Then i tried watching my favourite romanctic comedies. That didn't work as well, the more i watched the more i felt empty. Back to phase one, i started putting food into my mouth again, to fill in the emptiness i had in me.

Inez.

A Toast to Dreamers

The Other End of the Line. It's a chick flick but its definitely worth watching ! This movie is about this Indian girl from Mumbai who isn't afraid to dream and It caught me thinking about my dream my adventure my life. Yes, I know exactly what i'm gonna do after SPM and i know thats where my life would begin. I'd go for auditions and tons of castings maybe :D Still, It sucks that there isn't any [AUP] or [SAM] for what i'm gonna do. I'm not giving up just yet though, Who knows, maybe one day you'll see me on Tv or maybe on the big screens, ah , definitely on the first page of the papers, an oscar statuette in my hand :D oh, that'd be great wouldn't it ?

XOXO,
Inez.