An epiphany I had on Sara Bareilles' King of Anything

King of Anything by Sara Bareilles

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I'd say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You've got opinions, man
We're all entitled to 'em
But I never asked

So let me thank you for your time
And try not to waste any more of mine
Get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe
But I'm not drowning
There's no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree? You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So, you dare tell me who to be
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent
All full of good intent
Swear you know best

But you expect me to
Jump up onboard with you
Ride off into your delusional sunset

I'm not the one who's lost
With no direction, oh
But you'll never see

You're so busy making masks
With my name on it in all caps
You've got the talking down
Just not the listening

Who cares if you disagree? You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died and made you king of anything?

All my life I've tried
To make everybody happy while I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn
To decide

Who cares if you disagree? You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died and made you king of anything?

Who cares if you disagree? You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died and made you king of anything?

Let me hold your crown, babe

I like this song a lot but the more i sing, the more i find that something's wrong with the lyrics. And then one day, eureka! I found what's wrong with it. The whole song is about how she wants to tell off this person who constantly tells her what to do with her life. It says here in the lyrics she doesn't want this other persona's opinions and thoughts. She wishes that this other person could just keep his thoughts to himself. She wants to be free and not be told what to do. She is capable of living on her own, and she doesn't need to be rescued. BUT at the verse where i've underlined, it says, waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn to decide. WHAT??!! Throughout the whole song, she tells us how she feels about always being controlled by this other rather dominant character, and now she wants someone else to come along TO TELL HER that it's her turn to decide?! Woman, you are contradicting towards your own statement! If you know how it feels to always be told what to do, then woman, then why are you waiting for another person to tell you what should be done? You're back to square one where you're still controlled by someone! It ruins the whole purpose of this song! So dare you tell me who to be, yes, no one has the rights to tell you who to be, so please, don't wait for other people to tell you when to decide. You owe your life to no one to please but yourself. It's time you stop letting people tell you what to do, if you want to do something and it feels right to you, just do it. Go with your gut, or in the owl language, gizzard! ;)

Inez.

 

It got me thinking that i might be thinking too much.

I was hanging out with a bunch of friends this morning and Russell Peters came up. One of my friends started imitating him and told a gender joke Russell Peters made. It had something to do with how guys can just sit down for 15 minutes and not think about anything while girls can't. According to Russell Peters, us girls can never stop thinking, not even for 5 minutes, we can't! And it is very true. My mind is constantly filled with thoughts. Don't ask me what or why, i don't know. They're just there. Sometimes they even jump from one to another within seconds. And yes, some of the thoughts are incredibly random. I seriously don't know how the boys do it. Not think for 5 minutes is just mission impossible for me, but then again, when do boys ever think anyway. Am i right, girls? ;P

Inez.

The Comeback

2 months, i've been m.i.a for 2 months and what's better than to announce to the whole goddamn world, by world, i mean all you beautiful people who read my blog, that I passed my undang test! I was terrified that when i clicked the "tamat sesi" button, i closed my eyes with both of my hands. Good thing the room was empty when i saw my result cos i literally LOL-ed and then very out loud i said, damn bitch you're good! I walked out of the room, with pride i smiled while everyone else looked at me with their IDC faces. Ah, that's one of the best feelings you don't get to feel everyday. 

Inez.

There Are No Words

As scary as it is, writing my curriculum vitae a.k.a resume, I am grateful for having her as my mother. She's so amazing when it comes to these sorta stuff. I have a lovely pair of parents. One, who knows her way and is fearless in the corporate world, shows us the world as it is. The other, who sees the world in a whole new angle, teaches us many things that other children would only dream of. Thank you so much mommy and daddy. I love you :)

And It's A Whole New World

Day #1 of 2011
My family and I had to attend Chellah mama's funeral. We bid our goodbyes and came home.

Day #2 of 2011
Woke up feeling unwell. I spent the whole day lying down on my bed and staring into space while suffering through the pain.

Everything's gonna be just fine :)

Inez.

Howdy 2011 !

Happy New Year ! Great ahead of us everyone. Cheers and BLAST OFF! 

Inez. 

Stepping Into 2011

2011 was just 3 hours away when i got the news that one of my non blood-related grandaunt has passed on to the other side. She didn't make it to witness 2011 happen. She's now in a better place. A place with no pain, no sadness, no suffering, just pure happiness and peace. May she rest in peace. Happy new year Chellah mama.. Happy new year everyone :)

Inez.